things i sometimes wish

1. i had learnt to play the cello, because it would be a good showcase for my knees.

2. i hadn't gone out with my first boyfriend, who i honestly only liked because he was beautiful. he was a freak and wanted to keep me locked in his attic room with the tropical fish aquariums. if i had been less shallow (read: self-confident) i would have gone out with the nerdy boy who sat next to me in european history and told me once how he thought don amici was a great actor.

3. i had discovered bikini waxing sooner, or that i was Peaches and didn't bother.

4. i had never asked my first post-high school English teacher whether she thought going to school was really important. she said that if i thought i could live without a car, i could probably survive without going to school. i am certain i was just looking for an excuse to quit school, but still. what kind of freak-ass logic is that? and i listened to her!

5. that i could have my life be exactly how it is now without having to live my life during 1991-1993. everything sucked: me, my friends, the music, my job, my boyfriends, my clothes. i think i read one book during that time and didn't eat a single stalk of broccoli. when the time comes for nostalgia about the 90's i am going to live on the moon.
xoxo