les savy fav, i am having your baby.

three things have happened this last week that will, hopefully, exact change in my life.

1. i think we finally found someone to adopt the beagle! erin's brother fell in love with her. he met her over the weekend when keith and i were in seattle watching the red sox play. (i am happy to inform you that the groundskeepers have resumed their fourth inning dance routine. this time it was michael jackson's "bad". i wept.) and who wouldn't fall in love with her? my fingers are crossed that their love affair blossoms. i imagine them riding down the highway, hair and ears blowing in the wind.

2. i went to a reading for the graduate fiction and non-fiction writing students at psu. it's been a long time since i have been around people taking their art seriously and not just bedazzling their knee socks or what-have-you. it was inspiring and i felt like a bit of a sham being there, too shy to eat the cheese platter or sit with anyone else. there was a woman who read excerpts from her fiction and she was so fucking great -- confident and talented and beautiful and unadorned -- i wanted to walk up to her afterward and either slap her or kiss her. i did neither. i smiled at her instead, knowing i would say something too enthusiastic and sound totally crazy, which has become my m.o. with people at school lately. it's like half of my existence is happening only inside my head, and then the outside world doesn't get it. too exclamatory. too cheerleader-y. so i am hoping that i see her at school and i can calmly, rationally say (insert psuedo-intellectual voice here) "i really liked your reading." and then walk away. i hate social graces.

3. i have officially quit drinking. i woke up wednesday feeling like total trash and i spent a few hours with jeffrey, who is a 5-years-sober ex-drinker, and we ate dandelion greens with bacon. he cemented my desire to quit and also assured me, just by example, that being sober doesn't have to be dry and boring and square. it can be smart and sexy and hilarious and interesting: in short, like jeffrey. i am debating taking up a new addiction. maybe sex, or licorice, or jumping jacks, or cloud-counting. any suggestions are welcome.

xo